Bon Voyage

Well here I am on the eve of my third trip to Nepal. One I never thought I would make. Its so weird to think that only one year ago I was there and that a simple massage changed my life. ( That was when the C thing turned up). Little did I know when I set off full of excitement that I was carrying a stow away with me as I boarded that flight. An univited guest. Now I think I understand why we received so many blessings from the monks we met. It was as though the Universe was arming us ready for the fight I was to have on my return. And I thank it for that.

This trip for me is about thanksgiving and closure.  I am ready to thank the Universe for its grace and to receive if offered, further blessings. As we celebrate the Tibetan New Year on Wednesday evening I shall raise a glass to all of my friends and all the wonderful helpers I have met over this last year that have supported me in so many ways. I shall wish you all a Very Happy & Healthy New Year and give thanks for the last year Ive have and the rest to come.  I think this trip like the others before it will have a profound effect on me, especially as we shall be spending much more time on Spiritual matters than previously and in the company of very spiritual people. So heres to you all. I will try to update my blog whilst we are there, wi fi willing.

Skype

Its OK we are on Skype. Dennis and I spent a few minutes pondering the set up pages and then suddenly there he was on my screen. Isnt technology wonderful. So to make it more realistic he went into the office and I stayed in the kitchen. We had some small talk - but difficult because we had been talking all morning so not much to say. Then I decided to try cyber sex and got my boobs out !! Needless to say it didnt take long as my netbook crashed as my battery ran out. But the few minutes it lasted was fun at least for me, although I do have to say its not all its cracked up to be. Can't comment for Dennis except to say the last words I heard was' oh no are you getting them out again' . Honest, Denise Welch has not got a spot on me.
Spent all of yesterday afternoon designing my new webpage www.broniasandell.co.uk- please dont try to find it as its not live yet. The main reason being I hit the wrong button - story of my life- and it dissapeared. Thankfully after a good nights sleep I was able to find it so hopefully will be ready for weekend.  And of course we are off on Sunday, not a minute to spare at the moment just rushing around trying to get things done.

Starbucks

Isn't technology wonderful? I took my new toy into Starbucks today as Dennis said they had Wi Fi.   I don't like Starbucks coffee but decided I had to put up with it in the name of progress. Dennis ordered coffee and asked if Wi Fi was available, the girl said yes look for Cloud. He didn't like to ask anything else so came over and told me the same. What does that mean, look where ??  I felt very nervous as all around me teenagers were busy surfing. Not wanting to look a fool,  I took  my Netbook  out of its Indiana Jones type Netbook bag and turned it on. Nothing happened. I then remembered setting up my BT home hub so went into computer and then wireless settings. And there it was ' Cloud' aha I see what that means now. A couple of tentative clicks later and I was surfing !! I became very confident then ( and a little Mr Bean like) and started openly showing Dennis how clever I was.' Look here's Facebook and  here's my Blog' I was beaming.  I felt the power. This is great I said all we have to do is find a cafe with Wi Fi in Nepal and we can keep in touch and even update my Blog and Facebook. Dennis looked at me and said 'thats great' , he then became very serious and said ' what about Skype that's free isn't it ?' Honestly some people are never satisfied. Anyone know how Skype works ?? Michelle ?? ......

Wheres the time

Time is going so fast there seems to be no time. Isnt it strange ? My days seem full although I,m not working ( only Monday mornings). I am trying to get everything organised for Nepal. That includes sorting stuff this end too. And getting my hair done ( dyed). I know its going to be a last minute rush but heh no problem, stop moaning, at least I am able to do these things, I,m still here.
Keep getting energy surges that last for bit and then feel tired. So make the most of the surges !! My nails are very slowly getting back to normal although my fingers remain tingly and numb, same goes for my toes. I was very close to loosing my other big toe nail, but it seems to be growing normally now so hopefully it will stay attached until the loose bit grows out. The travellers cheques arrived today, so that caused a little excitement and am awaiting delivery of a netbook which will allow me to keep a journal on my travels and also hopefully will enable me to update my blog in internet cafe' s - that is if I can figure out how to ' connect'.
Am thinking of doing Tarot card readings for charity at a local event Easter Sunday, it would be good experience for me and I would only charge say £10. Thought I could raise some money for one of the centers that has helped me. Trouble is which one ?..

Simples

So busy running around like a headless chicken, trying to organise car insurance and LPG gas suppliers as both are up for renewal, before our holiday. Have found out that the Meerkats will insure my car for HALF the price of my current insurers. However the renewing company is Swinton - who I already insure with. Mad. Just shows you the Meerkats know best. !!  You know the ad when the guy is on the plane and the Meerkats turn up with his toy ?!!! Have negoitated a new supplier for gas but it takes 28 days to change over. In the meantime our gas tank is nearly empty and I have had to pay current supplier well over the odds to get a small delivery to tide us over what is going to be the coldest tme of the year.
And they told me not to get stressed !!  And now I find out we have a leak in one of our flats and the tenant has seen a rat - in an upstairs flat !! Ugh -  and Breathe !!
Am really pleased about my fellow Reiki Ravers, they are all following the path. Its so wierd how that first trip to Nepal changed us all in so many ways. It seems to have given us all a gift, and bound us together for always.  And when you think about it the second trip certaintly changed me and Dennis. Neither of us have been the same since!! And here we are going back for more and cant wait to get there. What is it about that place ? I wonder now what gift awaits us this time ?

What a lovely weekend. On Saturday night we had a party for Dennis - he is 65 !!  All the usual crowd turned up and we had a great time - from what I can remember. We had an impromptu stop over as it snowed quite heavily so a couple of the girls stayed. On Sunday I felt a bit delicate and have decided to abide by the latest advice given by the FSA or whatever and give my liver a couple of days off. Actually it will be the first two days off in months !! Still at the moment can report no actual sign of any benefit from the rest, but I have a few more hours to go !!

Been to the hospital for an end of treatment interview with Barbara my breast nurse. She asked how I was and how I felt my treatment had gone. She said I could see a counsellor if I felt I needed it, but she didnt think I did and neither do I. Although I can understand how it would benefit a lot of people. We had a general chat about my future and hospital follow ups and also signs for me to watch out for.  We discussed the various neurological side effects including my nail problems and the constant little pains in my boob. But I know all about those as I had the same after my Hip operation so am not fazed by them. She asked if I had thought about a reconstruction and I said definitely not this Summer, and she gave me the thumbs up and said it was always there when I wanted it. I told her of my travel arrangements and she reminded me of being careful with my right arm, particularly avoiding getting stung.  She then said that as I was a great example would I consider becoming a volunteer in about 6 months or so as it helps other women to be able to chat to someone who has gone through the process, I said an immediate yes as it would enable me to give something back. I also said I am quite willing to talk to anyone in the meantime and would have no hesitation in getting my booby out should someone want to see it if they were faced with the same operation and were afraid.  So again thats another little plan for the future. Right now I have to concentrate on getting ready for our return trip to Nepal in 2 weeks ........

Hospital appointment

Got up in a foul mood on Monday, I did not want to go back to the hospital. When we got there I was told that my breast nurse had gone home sick and that appointment would need to be rearranged. I then had to sit in the chemo waiting room, which was not helpful.  When I got into the Oncologist he asked how I was. I said fine. He said any problems, I said no. He asked how my short term memory was, I said crap. He laughed and said it was a side effect of the chemo. That explains a lot !! He then asked when was my next appointment. I said with Jenny Smith in March, he said ok, at that point I would have a mammogram. And that he would arrange a follow up appointment with me in September. In the meantime I was to go away and enjoy myself. I looked at him and said ' are you not going to scan me'? He said yes probably in September, but not to worry about that just go away and enjoy myself. I didnt need telling twice, I just asked why I had an appointment in Scunthorpe next week with ' the Bitch' and he said just ring up and cancel it as the computer has generated it !! Then I was out of that place like a shot !!
It was our wedding aniversary so we decided to go into Cleethorpes and have a drink and some tapas. It was freezing and horrible and when we got to Cleethorpes nothing was open- well it was only 4.30 ! So we did what any old fucked up couple do - we got in the car and came home to light the fire and relax in the lounge and watch Deal or No deal. Romantic eh ??
Now we  are waiting for the carpet fitters to fit the new lounge carpet and I will spent the rest of the week putting the house back and preparing for Dens 65th birthday party on Saturday. I WILL ENJOY MYSELF...